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Speak for Yourself

Monday, February 1, 2010 by Mikey


And when I say Speak for Yourself, I mean, seriously, do it. You'll feel a lot better; I know I did.

The other day I had like a miniature mental breakdown because of what someone said to me online on a site called Gaiaonline. I know, sounds pretty pathetic, but seriously, it has impacted my life in a really, really nice way.

Basically what the person told me was that I try to hard to seem like I don't care. She was right too. I try WAY too hard sometimes. I don't even know why I try so hard. Is it to impress someone, or what? I guess it was, but now I can't be sure.

That night, I basically told myself that I was going to speak out for what I believe in, essentially, and stop letting people influence how I want to behave. It's not like I'm going to be rude to someone who deserves to be bitched out, but in the general sense of the phrase, I really am going to "do what I want, when I want." I have been since then, and it's working out pretty well. You do feel bad sometimes because people don't necessarily always like the decisions you make, but that's not on your conscious if you're not doing anything bad.

All right, to the purpose of the blog post, haha. Umm...

Do you think that you're the kind of person that's less likely to voice your concerns because you're afraid of someone putting you down, or are you likely to speak for yourself?

I'm not gonna lie to myself, or you, and say that it's easy. It's not. And I do fail sometimes, but just the fact that I'm trying and that I'm being myself in the process is reassuring.

Is it for you?

4 comments:

  1. Margo
    February 1, 2010 at 12:50 PM

    This isn't very constructive, but I used to go on Gaia when I was like 14, and that place is crazy!

  1. Mikey
    February 1, 2010 at 12:52 PM

    I know, I am like ADDICTED to it. It's not healthy.

    xD

  1. bclement412
    February 1, 2010 at 1:42 PM

    Um, you reaaaally sound like me in this. Scarily alike actually ;)

  1. Emilia Plater
    February 1, 2010 at 3:42 PM

    OMFG GAIA. I was a total Gaia nerd for like, 2 years, though not anymore. It's not pathetic at all - I met people there that I'll remember for ever, one who I still talk to regularly! Do you want my Angelic Pendant?! haha aanyway, I totally get what you're saying. Confidence is a huge part of being able to speak up. Freshman year, insecurities... it was awful. But it got better as the confidence - stemming from things as simple as writing - went up. Now I'm a total bitch. LOL. Sometimes.

    Also.

    Lost.

    Tomorrow.

    HOW MUCH ARE YOU SPAZZING?!?!

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